Well as you may imagine observing this negative derogatory vibes towards people like my mother asa young girl within society left an impression. People whom seemingly could only be handled with drugs to numb them out and experimental medical interventions made me feel very unsafe and thus desperate to be one of those that fit in and went under the radar of society quietly. I knew what happened to people whom did not and I seen how disempowered they became and even more distorted, fearful, ungrounded, anxious and confused.
Little did I even consider that one day I would walk around in one of the most beautiful countries in the world and feel like most of its people were acting like they were living in an asylum. Showcasing behaving in the strangest undignified disharmonious ways pretending it is normal just because it is being normalised by so many mouth pieces through ones device or as it likes to call itself “ one source of truth “.
My mum was terrified if the devil was going to get her. This was a reflection of so much of her own unacknowledged and unhealed trauma and confusion from her own childhood and religious / cultural / ancestral and societal upbringing.
Now so many has turned their natural bodies ability ( natural immunity ) to heal and adapt into a devilish thing to distrust , fear, avoid, deny, blame and shame Self and others about. It is fricken insane to say the least.
Wake up kiwis and all global hearts ! ! !
You are worthy and deserving of so much more personal empowerment. Reclaim your self worth, self connection, self trust and self dignity.
Release yourself from your own self imposed prisons of restrictions. Restricting breath, restricting life force energies , restricting natural organic joyful connections and innate nature well-being. Drop the fear and separation isolating identities. Choose ways to connect more with your heart and inner truth beyond these limitations. You are powerful beyond measure !!! Re~member !!!
Rise & Shine dear hearts.
At Spirit Festival 2 weeks ago I came back to VLR wiped out energetically and emotionally. All resistance was gone to actually putting my own self care needs first and forefront to anyone else’s. Up until then I was still better at showing up for other people’s well being before my own and having the tendency to want to be a people pleaser. I had improved heaps over the year’s to reclaim my balance of giving and receiving but I had not settled the scales into perfect harmonious balance. I was finding it more challenging in 2020 and 2021 and now 2022 to deny / avoiding listening to my own needs by putting others before them.
At the festival that old unintegrated part of me desperate to fit in to feel safe and part of something agreeable within the majority of the whole took over. The more it did, the more I did not know where I fit in or felt more and more lost amongst the crowd of beautiful people enjoying a good time in the name of spirit , love and unity. Surely I had to fit into this as this is definitely what I am about I asked myself !? However the more I looked for where I fit the more lost and out of synch I became with myself and thus on the outside interactions. I felt awkward and doubting my own self worth. I became lost in my fragmented aspects from childhood that cried out for healing, care and consideration.
I got to witness and behold a old friend within me I had not felt in a long time. I felt alone and like a ghost going through the motions of interactions. I realised OMG this is how so many people must be feeling within society and no wonder so many feel so lost and decide to even take their own life’s to get relieve.
I lost my centre and presence and self respect for a time. I forgot how to be leader~full within my own vibrational energies and guide myself through with the empowering voice and wisdom of my heart and authentic self. It felt demoralising and crushing. I thought “ I don’t think this is for me “ and I could not wait to return home and attend to my needs for time alone with self to rest, heal and recalibrate to my own authentic vibrations. To realise and accept and honour that I really thrive with lots of alone time in nature.
It was a life lesson for me to commit deeper to my own true authentic vibrations beyond what ever is happening around me.
It was a tough lesson to learn to let that old energy of needing to fit in go and instead focus again on being my unique authentic vibrations and flow from a connected empowered place within myself.
It was a tough lesson to release old energies of Separation ; self doubt, feelings of being inadequate to others, Propensity to want to hide away among the crowd and not stand out for fear of being different and avoid for my younger version self to feel unsafe in a old world perception where people that were different got locked away out of sight and out of mind and put on a concoctions of meds.
I am here to light a path through the darkness of the human psyche and this begins with me. I am forever grateful to my wonderful mum for showing and demonstrating to me at such a young age whom I did not want to become ie a disempowered women with natural psyche intuitive abilities misunderstood / rejected within a society that is very narrow minded in its approach to approving systems of life and living through the left brain logic and myriad of bias.
May the lessons I have learnt through my mum and that have passed through me as tools of insight and transformation to heal and touch our / your heart and transcend the corridors of limitations within the human psyche and belief systems that ball and chain I / you / we no more.
May all beings be blessed with the self awareness and self worth to stand tall and be counted as one whom has reclaimed and demonstrated self respect, self honour , self care and self love . From a full and overflowing cup feed the many open and ready hearts and minds with the light of authentic truth, presence and divine radiance.
And so it is.
Written by Mary Jo Halligan.
VLR Co-creative director, Healed Healer and Divine Love Ambassador 2022.