A important message. 
When you hear the word cancer 
Does it make you feel more love or more fear?
Does it make you feel more contracted, overwhelmed, sympathetic and feeling hopeless ? for yourself or others with the diagnosis ?

Did you know that with all the money and research poured into finding a cure the stats show it has only increased and become way more prevalent across the globe. To learn more go watch the movie  Food Matters.

At its core according what I have learned from many clients I have worked with via quantum hypnosis healing sessions over the last few years is that the message of Cancer in the body is generally a by-product of too much fear and stress in the persons life. This has created the lack of oxygen into the cells due to the lack of feeling deserving of taken in life and being fully supported by life unconditionally. I.E. no self sacrifice required. 

Which translates to this message that you do not have to try and do it all and be it all for everyone around you all the time ... sound familiar !?!

Depending where in the body the Cancer is will reflect the message of that specific stressor or place of lack of fulfilment being experienced or allowed by the individually person.

Until the underlining core message is accepted, received and honoured then it has to return ( because the message was NOT received & accepted fully ) .... even with a so called clean bill of health offered by surgeons post cancer treatments.

My message if you have read my previous post and video is stop hating the messengers.
Allow if you will ..... for I am
a voice for your intelligent brilliant body.

Instead why not receive its messages and make friends with your intelligent body. Ask what does it need from you to heal, not how can I get rid of the messenger and extinguish it forever. How unkind to that which is doing its best to point you onto a higher more soulfully aligned supported path for your life. ( remember you wanted to be that in this life  !!! ).

I know this is a touchy controversial conversation that many would prefer give a wide birth too. Trust me when I say this message comes from a deep place of fierce love and compassion from the knowiness of a deeper truth and understanding of whom each one is. No one is a victim of circumstances.

Life truly is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of how you respond.

Thankfully more and more people are responding with greater self responsibility to discover more about how to self-heal and self-care more naturally. More naturally means in a way that is in harmony with ones nature and the greater nature of planet earth and even our universe. 

More and more people are learning to move away from the nay sayers even if they are their families. It is vital to move away from the negative projections of other peoples fears and judgements. Remember it is your life that is potentially at stake here. This is your wake up call from your deeper self ( higher self ) to come back to your deeper truth and truer nature.

This is important for every cell of the body listens to every thought of the person and responds accordingly. Ones environment is of the upmost importance for recovery and continued sustainable health and wealth of well-being.

In today’s world it often takes great courage to take back ones power and make oneself as number 1 in ones life. The mind cries out .... but that means I am selfish. No it really does not, the more you are healed, the more you can be your greatest version with authentic love and compassion for yourself and your family.

​Being faced with a potential death sentence is one way to get your attention and willingness to come back into the self on a deeper level and discover the wealth of well-being, divine love , light , connection and support available if only one is willing. The Ego has FREE WILL to say no and continue trying to fit into what it thinks everyone around needs of them in order to get their .... let’s face it conditionally love, approval and support !!!

“ forgive them father for they know not what they do “ 

What is happening with cancer on this planet is traumatic indeed particular in western countries. 

It does not have to be and many have used it to their advantage and decided to truly live beyond fear , doubt and the limitations of the mind. Some of these people have written books , truly inspirational insightful books of what it means to finally let go and fully embrace life and oneself one day at a time.

Example 1: They take the money and book the travel adventure they had been planning for some future date way down the road perhaps after all their children’s had gone through college.

2: They book the retreat they always wanted and allow receiving been pampered and cared for and nourished on every level.

3: They start running because they always had a dream of running a marathon but never felt they had what it takes.

Many people that have been labelled with the dreaded C word diagnosis to deal with go onto discover the inherent beauty of life and themselves along the way. But really ... is this how bad things have to get before we will surrender the hard life, pretences and suffering stubborn attitude ?

What will it take to open up to the value of self-care, self nurturance, receiving support, letting emotions pour out freely and unapologetically and being ones true authentic self.

Life ( spirit , god, nature or what ever word is yours to express that which is beyond comprehension and human words ) loves you so much that if a illness is required to get your attention to help you become aware to what is happening deeper with in you ... so be it. You are the love affair of eternal life and it will do what ever you require and ask of it via your daily thoughts / actions / vibrations for your highest and best good.

But the question is .. will you ???

A helpful, clarifying and powerful question to tap into what you would really do if you were not afraid is this.

Ask yourself

Q: if I were not afraid I would ???

Write the response down

or

even better and when you are ready to go deeper ... look in the mirror. Look deep into your own eyes ( yes it can be confronting , breath deeply and allow ) , “ the eyes are the window of the soul “ where the hidden becomes revealed. Let the tears flow as they are the acknowledgement of deeper truths and unfelt feelings from long ago.

This is the natural healing process 
Emotions are just energy in motion 
Set them free
And 
You set yourself free.

Amen ? 
Namaste ? 
A Return to love and acceptance is key 
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Don’t hate the messengers 
Only Take what is helpful 
That which resonants with your own deeper inner knowingness 
And 
Leave the rest.

I am only here as a guide to help awaken you on behalf of your inner light as others have done for me and continue to do.
We walk our respective journey alone for awhile only to discover along the way that we have never been alone. For all is connected.

Trust your life path
Embrace its edginess 
Go beyond previous limitations 
Awaken to your deeper truth 
You choose to be on this planet 
Your soul would not have missed it 
None of it has been a mistake 
Say yessss to you 
And 
Watch your life transform

I am here to support those whom feel guided and resonant with my energy.

My soul has prepared itself for this life as Mary Jo to be a guide through the darkness and light the pathway out for those choosing it.

Still each person will have to walk your path with inner trust and faith for awhile until the light comes over the dawn and then you will understand the greater vision of it all.

You will look back on your life and potentially lifetimes and see the eyes of great wisdom and compassion

You will sense the magnificent of the journey (s) and would never give back the experience of it all for it brought you HERE into self realisation and yet .... never intend to repeat again.

Welcome to the new energy consciousness.

Infinite love and gratitude 
Mary Jo 
Vibrant Living Retreat Co-Creative Director, Therapist and Yoga Instructor. 
Www.vibrantliving.co.nz

Interested to book in your own Quantum Healing Hypnosis session ? No questions off limit and anything can be healed including relationship issues, money, health, self esteem etc. All challenges carried within them a message. When the message is understood and is released then new patterns for life can be created and established more easily and sustainable as you would prefer. 

• For June / July winer specials I am offering my Quantum Healing Hypnosis Session for $55 discount. Reducing from $555 to just $500. Allow 4-6 hours for these one off transformational sessions. 

Mention this BLOG and REF : qhht55winterspecial when booking to receive the discount. 

• or Better still why not book a 2 night B&B stay in our Lodge Ensuite room plus the inclusive of 1 x QHHT session for juts $899 reduced from $949 
• or go completely two feet in and book a Quantum Wellness Retreat inclusive of QHHT and lots more wellness experiences and daily practices.  This can be done as a detox juice fasting retreat with the QHHT included on 2nd last day of the fast. Highest recommendations is this option if you are ready to embrace and say YES to real lasting change, personal empowerment and lasting transformation.

The 3 choices of Humanity or States of being seem to be along these lines currently.  

A. YES bring it on .. green light !!!

B. I am watching from the fence line and staying neural .. !!! May lead to apathy and giving up / feeling powerless.

C. NO not me, I want to go back, I want it the way it was. I like living within the rule box and systems; I won't change and let the past go. I will keep the good fight going.

I was guided just a few days ago to create and upload to Youtube video with a audio section from one of my private clients Quantum Healing Hypnosis ( QHHT ) session that was recorded on March 28th 2019. The part of the session I have uploaded contains some interesting information that I felt would potentially offer some insight to more people awakening trying to make sense of what was happening within oneself and out in the world. On this recording she speaks from her expanded super - consciousness about older and younger souls working together to help awaken humanity, the 3 choices being taken by humanity and a look at a few areas of more darker and lighter energy areas on the planet. 

My lovely client Sandra willingly gave her permission to share its contents in the hope that it may be helpful to others. The video is 90mins and completes with one of my favourite short meditations from Rasha from her C.D. " ONENESS " . 

In 2019 I am feeling inspired to be even more true to my heart and to what my heart ~ soul knows and to trust that knowing and guidance and allow it to serve whom ever it resonants with and can be helpful for. 

Here is the video below or link of that video for when you have some time to relax and soak it up
LINK HERE. 

Subscribe to my Youtube Channel by clicking this link HERE 

Learn more about Quantum Healing Hypnosis session HERE and Quantum Wellness Retreat HERE 

Namaste 
Mary Jo ​

OUR QUESTION : Do you have a caring nature and want to help people feel less stress and tensions in their bodies while accessing greater harmonious well being in their life's ?

Have you been dreaming of becoming a caring and skilled Holistic Intuitive Massage Therapist ?
Are you wondering how you can create a better life / work balance and sustain your own joy and wellness without burnout and overwhelm ?
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Would you like to work and thrive in the wellness industry helping 100's and 1000's of people feel more relaxed, calm, centred, empowered and connected with themselves in body, mind and soul ?

​OUR VISION with launching Vibrant Wellness Academy FEB 2017' : Our new paradigm training academy at Vibrant Living Retreat was to support those with a caring nature and interest for massage and wellness to access the skills and confidence as quickly as possible to BE WELL & SHARE WELLNESS.

We believe that caring for self is absolutely required to be able to sustain a thriving career and business caring for others with integrity and authenticity.

So we have created our holistic massage training courses to be part of a personal wellness retreats to not just learn but embody the learning in your own cells and neural pathways experientially. These training retreats are perfect for those whom learn in a hands on practical immersive way.

WE BELIEVE that staying on retreat allows our students to learn, absorb and integrate the information and experiences offered each day. We aim to simplify the seeming complex nature and mainstream understandings of health and wellness into what really matters and what really works from a holistic intuitive perspective in the shortest amount of time and that anyone can pick up with the right openness, a caring adaptable nature and heart - mind intentions.

Please review our training page for more massage student reviews through out. HERE 

Embracing the beauty of my emotional body by opening up my heart and vulnerability has definitely been a big part of my own healing journey. This has been an invaluable step to discovering and unearthing within myself the inner trust to  flow  my authentic expression and walk my souls greater truth and vision for this life time on earth. 

This morning I found myself in some raw feelings and releasing tears as I touched into some past trauma of sadness and rage and over whelm experienced by my younger ( inner child ) self but never really allowed to be expressed. 

As I take steps forward in my inner empowerment journey and do my own inner personal rebalancing work by taking responsibility for my emotions and past experiences, I am blessed to turn around and support others by shining the light on a pathway of possibilities and probability to step upon mindfully to support moving forward with empowering wellness tools, relatable stories,  intuitive soulful guidance and practical insights. It is beautiful and magical and a delight to my heart and soul to be in service this way to so many beautiful humans I get to cross paths with in all kinds of ways and from all walks of life. Many have become great friends and are like soul family ; all of us on this big life adventure supporting one another along the way of unknowns, ups and wobbles. 

Life in the big bad world can look pretty messy somedays depending on whom you are listening to and perhaps as a reflection too in your own personal life.  However I promise you all is truly well and all is unfolding perfectly for us as a humanity. The best analogy is we are living in the trenches of life and don't get to see the bigger over view of what is really happening in our life's until we do that is. I offer very special session called Quantum Healing Hypnosis session that assist with this and you can read a review and click a link to learn more at the end of this blog post. The most important thing for any of is to rediscover whom we really are, release what does not work anymore and trust our own hearts and specialness to be taken care of and be a intricate part of a greater divine plan.  Then go have fun, follow what brings you immense  joy and life your passions full out. Start caring about yourself so you can truly care about all others and the planet and animals. Be part of the solution and not the problem in resistance to the current of life in its evolutional cycle due to being afraid of change, loss and different experiences. Trust you and trust life. 

WHY IS LIFE SO CHALLENGING THEN ? 
Our life experiences are triggering in us via current life events, people, places and things old wounds, imbalances  and unresolved emotions to heal either from child hood, ancestral and / or past life's. These are often brought to our attention by the messages from our bodies. I can speak personally as I have had a few physically issues of late and I have been exploring the psychological messages of them. Today they resonated so profoundly because I was ready to finally feel the truth and connection more deeply within my subconscious memories and allow the emotions to surface and flow free. I can already feel that my physically issue are beginning to lessen in there intensity. . 

The body is the wonderful messenger and physical expression of the sub conscious mind. Just like it is time to befriend our emotions. it is beyond high time to befriend our amazing human bodies. Just like emotions so many of us were thought to fight against them with shame, blame and even hatred. Hence opting to living in the head, the mental mind and not really being connected and present in the feeling body. For some people it has been too darn painful to feel and for others pain was the only thing keeping them  in the body by gaining their attention and focus. 

Feeling are so important in order to listen to and hear the bodies messages. If we have negated our ability to feel and live in harmony with our body and emotion's, then over time the body has to shout louder and louder to get our attention. Are you beginning to see and understand how this culminates in many cases of dis-ease ( illness acute and chronic ).  Not all as some are the souls plan to have a certain preferred experience to enhance its  wisdom and compassion. 

The challenge with emotions is when we have become so detached from them and have judged them harshly, some of them can seem so over whelming and every method of control is used to keep them in there place. Of course over time this is going to be exhausting because it is going against the very current of life which is the ability to feel ones experiences and feel them deeply from sadness to happiness, grief to love, abandonment to belonging, fear to empowerment and everything in between on the emotional scale. Some people embrace certain emotions and make other emotions bad or wrong. Anger is a great example of this and is greatly misunderstood. Healthy anger is fiery passion that says NO that is not Ok with me, it has crossed the line and I will not condone this behaviour. When repressed this feeling of anger can become very unhealthy and unhealed and leak out in a triggered reaction at the wrong place and wrong time and potentially hurt others. 

Emotions become unhealthy when stuffed down over a period of time. When they have not been felt and embraced it does not mean they have gone away , it only means they are waiting for there day or if this does not come then they will express another way as mentioned in sickness and ailments or it can be in mental outbursts of rage, anger, hatred , revenge, depression and so on . Another example of unhealthy emotional expression is getting car rage when someone cuts you off in traffic. Another example is parents that get so overwhelmed with their emotions they hit or shout at their children with lack of patience and a neediness to exert a feeling of being in control. Or it maybe because that is how they were treated by their own parents so they are just in a pattern of this reaction instead of being able to access  a more calm loving and new approach better suited to the modern times and understandings of what creates healthy, happy and confident children to grow into caring responsible adults.  
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We are so lucky these days with technology and the information age as we have access to so much knowledge. The only challenge can sometimes be what to enter into google and then stay on track with what is useful. However here are a few of the tools I love to use myself and I share with those that attend our Vibrant Living Wellness Retreats. 

1. Take a few deep breathe to calm , steady and ground your energies 
2. Journal your thoughts and feelings down daily if possibly or when ever strong emotions and reactions occur. If you cannot sleep at night, often it is because you need to journal down your thoughts and be more receptive to your heart guidance  
3. Go for a walk in nature, listen to the birds and sounds around you and if you dare hug a tree 
4. If you have some physically issue and are interested to know more about the psychologically messages from the body then a great starting off resource is to purchase Louise Hays " You can heal your life " book 
5. Exercise to release some tension and then journal if it works better that way for you. Don't run from your emotions as that is an avoidance pattern. 
6. Learn to mother and father yourself ... your inner child self that is feeling the emotional reactions in ways your parents or care givers never could or did not have the capacity to do so. Hear yourself out... that is what the journal is for and then parent the one whom has been feeling the hurt, feeling unheard , unseen, unloved  ...etc ! 
7. Be patient with yourself and know that creating a healthy relationship with emotions and feelings is one of the most powerful and empowering things you can invest you time and energy into. It may take a little practice to discover this and if you commit for even just a few days you will feel results and life will become easier and more joyful 
8. Talk through them with a trusted friend or paid therapist than can hold non judgemental and supported space for you to express authentically 

Infinite gratitude for every journey each person has taken to experience life in its fullness, rawness, harshness , sadness, sorrow and then elevate to dazzlingly heights of greatness, connection and exhilaration to discover what ever was theirs / yours / ours to discover.
Infinite grace & compassion 
Mary jo 💗

To book a Qhht session with Mary Jo . 
Review below. 
http://www.vibrantliving.co.nz/quantum-hypnosis-qhht.html

It is amazing how the universe works out the details and all that is required is for us to show up , say our big YES and trust the flow in each moment and day.

That is the new paradigm folks accepting the self ...in order to fully trust thee self and trust the flow of life ; for we are all connected to the infinite intelligence of life source consciousness. Once we reacquaint ourselves with our deeper truer inner being ( light love thought ) then life takes on a new realisation of simplicity , ease, abundance and joy.

My heart is over flowing with love & gratitude for the life we have allowed and get to live and share at VLR. Truly it has become very apparent that all we have to do is show up being more and more of our truth each day and supporting others to do the same in essence. 

Blog Post written by Mary Jo as a Facebook post on Vibrant Living Retreat Biz Page and re-edited and expanded upon on this blog post.  Hope you enjoyed and found useful resonants with the words and energies of this post. 

What if anything is possible once you open to the possibilities ?

The majority of my clients however have come across the concept while visiting us here at VLR in person, social media posts, word of mouth or found my Qhht webpage rather magically on Vibrant Living.co.nz . Then followed their guidance ..... aka good feelings vibes to book a session in. A few have come via the offical Qhht site of qualified practitioners around the world but most have just been magically guided I feel because that is how life works and I ask my own higher wise self to bring me the perfect clients that resonant with my energy and I / we can support and assist. I believe the prayer or intention is put out from our hearts when looking for support and the next step forward and then life’s great intelligence goes to work to bring it to us.... if we are open to receiving the guidance. One still has to choose to trust it and take the step forward and know they are worth it ! ! !

If you are still reading this post then I would suggest it is by no accident . You may like to check out more about these sessions on our webpage . The webpage is HERE 

A few sweet caring clients have asked me afterwards how is it for me to facilitate one of these Qhht sessions that are ‘ one off sessions by the way ‘ but can go for 4 - 6 hrs ? To Which I reply “ they are my meditation “ and a real honour to be a supportive part of someone’s intimate transformational healing & integrative empowerment session. I do not take it lightly the trust that it takes for someone to open & allow such a deep transformational journey in my presence. For me ... I feel what’s not to love in this, it brings great joy & satisfaction to my heart & soul to be of divine services this way.

I / We truly feel so lucky & honoured at VLR to get to live our truth each day doing what we love & loving what we do. We get to bare witness to transformation after transformation pre & post Qhht sessions & wellness detox retreats. In truth magically transformations happen all the time here, sometimes all it takes is a quality holistic intuitive massage or for others it is just being in our VLR environment that feels relaxing  and positive. YEAH :)

For me it is especially delightful to work with the beautiful hearts that arrive. Sometimes people arrive exhausted of the old ways, issues, toxicity & patterns and are ready, willing & able to finally let in the support and step into greater self responsibility to trust, allow, let go and forgive the past which opens up spaciousness to receive powerful inner healing's ; these can be physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and all of the above and more including relationships and abundance. Client also gain clarity on life purpose and receive guidance from ones deeper self ( soul ~ higher self ) on what ever they would like guidance, insights and understanding on. Basically no question is off limits and there is no issue that can’t be healed or resolved over time when the most aligned ingredients, understanding and insights are offered and put into practice.

To learn more about these one if a special kind quantum sessions and to book your's see my webpage . 
http://www.vibrantliving.co.nz/quantum-hypnosis-qhht.html
To book a quantum wellness retreat . Check out our packages here inclusive of one qhht session .
http://www.vibrantliving.co.nz/quantum-wellness-retreat.html

Gift voucher available for all we offer at Vibrant Living Retreat. Just email ? or call to arrange . ( Gift Vouchers can be a $$$ amount and used toward anything we offer ).
Phone ? 006433157429
Vouchers can be emailed or posted.

Thank you beautiful Mila from Queenstown for flying to Hanmer to have your QHHT session with me last week and for your review of your session. This review is included in this post and added to our webpage .

Mila is currently training to be a Qhht practitioner and is a wonderful soul with deep compassion for the human journey. Offering Qhht sessions is her highest path at this time so if you are in Queenstown look her up or ask me for her details.

​Wow what a epic month it has been - lucky me . 
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Infinite love, grace & blessings 
Mary jo ?

In joyful services to a empowered & joyfully magnificent humanity. 
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It is a inner game it is ... this life thing ! ! ! ?
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P.S. 
I just realised I have a couple of session openings pre Xmas dec 21st & 23rd And over Xmas to New Years period too. Email Mary jo : info@vibrantliving.co.nz 
Read website page link and more info on sessions.

P. s . FYI .... Our 3 night Dec 2018 Being You Retreat was so successful and delightful to be a part of that we have decided to run another one Jan 15th 2019 - More info HERE  on visiting facilitators Rebecca Gambles website ) ​

At vibrant living we are currently running a Juice fasting detox wellness retreat which is one of the most transformational healing, harmonising & restorative gifts you could give yourself for body mind emotions & soul. 

We run regular detox fasting retreats as private and group bookings. 

 I am currently receiving more and more people booking in Quantum healing hypnosis sessions which reflects that more and more people are looking for healing and discovering their purpose. More people are being open, willing and ready to reconnect with ones deeper truer self and inner light once more. In general more people are more exhausted and this is a good thing because it means we are ready to surrender and stop fighting for our limitations. These sessions are truly soul healing's as much as they are healing and affirming on the human body / mind  / emotional level. Many people during the hypnosis revisit past life’s , child hood experiences or/& galactic connections or/& guides in order to gather a greater understanding on life patterns and experiences and how to heal moving forward. " The only limitations are the ones you place upon your self " 
To find out more about what is involved in this kind of session check out my dedicated QHHT ( Quantum Hypnosis website www.RadiantEssence.co.nz ​.
​I am trained to LEVEL 2 QHHT directly with Dolores Cannon in 2013 and 2014. 

​On Dec 9th -12th we are delighted to have visiting facilitator Rebecca Gambles to co-facilitate our 3 night / 4 days ‘ BEing You’ transformational Wellness Retreat here at Vlr. The invitation “ embody the truth of who you are “. 

Rebecca is a gifted healer in past life regression, angelic reiki, mediumship , animal communications, yoga teacher, laughter yoga guide, pleidian lightwork and a great story teller that walks her talk as a healer and always has everyone around the table deeply engaged and with fits of laughter erupting often.

Please check out our vlr events on this page for more info on this retreat. 
Or website page https://rebeccagambles.com/being-you-retreat/

Be You true & change the world 🌍 

To read Sharon articles on her scientific research that backs up eating more seaweed click HERE or scroll to the bottom and click on the picture underneath my written reflections and musings on us 2 sisters and the road to bridging the gap between on seemingly differences. 

For many years both myself and my sister Sharon have been very dedicated to discovering in our own respective fields and life journeys the elements which develop and sustain health and wellness.

While Sharon has come from a more research science background or academia left brain approach which has opened up more understanding to explore more right brain BMS experiences. I, myself have come from a more right brain approach to life as I followed my heart and guided inner feeling sense which took me into taking many more experiential sensory trainings like Yoga teacher Trainings, 10 day Silent Meditations Retreats & Training in Many Massage & Healing Arts modalities. In these was where I got to discover 1st hand through my own self awareness, self realisation, inner transformations and awakening moments many insights into the mind, body, emotional, spiritual connections and how they influence one another in harmony or coherence and out of harmony. These experiences lead me to search out or simply be interested in the science that collaborates these experiences of awareness and resonates with my deeper inner knowing or soulful essence. It is exciting to me to ground what can seem like spiritual pie in the sky wishy washy concepts with the latest newly evolving science and its discoveries !!! YEAH finally !!! 

We are delighted in our own unique ways to support those whom are ready to step forward to support themselves with self responsibility to making the changes one says they are wanting to create and experience in ones life in body, Mind and Soul. 

​In fact personally speaking this floats my boat and I feel alive and on purpose when supporting others whom are choosing to step forward to support themselves.  It takes commitment, dedication and a deep desire to believe that life can be different and that one deserves the best in life and to go beyond the old norms with greater ease, joy , connection and fulfilment.  

I will complete this writing with one of my favourite scientists I often quote at my retreats that I think will sum it up nicely and practically. 

Mr Albert Einstein
" You cannot solve a problem from the level of thinking that created the problem ". 

A.E. definition for insanity " Doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result ". 

I was 14yrs when myself & my sibling got the news that my Mum had died suddenly from a heart attack in the psych hospital on the west coast of Ireland in Co.Mayo. For years my mum had been in and out of hospital and was staying longer in than out as the years passed. The autopsy reported that it was 2 different types of medication that she had taken or was giving to her that had caused the heart attack to suddenly occur to this women of 34 years.

My mum had suffered for many years from post natal depression which started after I was born and this got progressively worst over the years until she was verging onto the diagnosis of schizophrenia around the time of her death. I recall over hearing when I a child about her having electrical shock treatments and being on lithium meds and others I don't no the names of.  Both my parents took different concoctions of medications for different reasons. 

I as her first child born in 1978 loved this women unconditionally and I have some special memories with her. There were times when she would be my protector from a potential punch aiming my way from my father whom came from the era of when hitting a child was the normal way to try to control a child and put the fear of God in them when they stepped out of line with behaviour.

Sometimes I became the mediator between my parents as my father believed that my mother would listen to me and I could calm her down. The funny thing is my father was scared of my mother because she could be very unpredictable, ungrounded and out of control. It was true my mum would listen to me and seem to trust what I had to share and even though I was scared by the anger levels rising I would do what I could to be courageous and step up to the plate of peace keeper when required to do so. However when it was my Dad that was angry and his Jekyll  personality transformed into the Hyde creature, anything I would say would just makes things worst and I often got myself into more strife for speaking up and trying to get him to see the error of his behaviours and language towards his children.  I recall my younger siblings telling me to not answer back as we all knew the potential consequences. Yet for some reason on many occasions I could not keep my mouth closed as I felt compelled to step up and attempt to get through to my father the error of his behaviour towards his own children.  I recall at age 11yr giving my father a birthday card with the words " Please let your children love you". 

Like many many adults my father knew so little about unconditional love, he didn't feel loved as a child by his mother and his father dies when he was 2 years old I believe. My father married my mother 27 years her seniors when he was 47. He grew up post 2nd world war years in much harder times where at 8 or 9 years old due to his father having died a few years previous he was the man of the house and would walk for miles to a cattle mart to try and sell a cow so food could be put on the table for him, his younger sister and mother to survive. Oh how he would love to reminiscing about times of the rations.  My father had and still does have at age 88yrs a great memory of the olden days as he calls them. So much so he would sound like a broken record sometimes going round and round the old stories on repeat. He was endearing and entertaining for others as he could tell a tell and recite a old Irish poem.  

I loved both my parents as any child loves unconditionally their parent in those formative years, they were my everything. I already knew very early on by age 6 that life could be much worst after having spent 3 years in 2 different children's homes from age 3 - 6yrs. I was delighted to belong to these parents even if life was very confusing and overwhelming at times. At least I had good times, laughs and memories of feeling I had a place, a sense of belonging and a value within the family unit and with my siblings 'blood is thicken than water' mentally reined high in my younger years.  A tumultuous family to feel apart of and of value too was way better than a non existent family to me at the time and no place of really belonging ! 

Every day before I would leave for school I would go into my mums room and say good bye sometimes tickling her feet to get a reaction and hope to get her smiling. By age 13 and 14 years I was getting to the stage where I just would have loved a mum that would be so called 'normal ' and make me a simply thing like a  sandwich. I just wanted to focus on being a regular teenager and not feel so overburdened with grown up worries, responsibilities, dramas and concern. Little did I know that the one time I did not go into to say good bye to my mum before she left to return to the hospital would be my last. I think it was 2 days later my father came to our secondary school to tell us the sudden and shocking news. 

For some reason I was giving the impressions or took it upon myself to always be the responsibly one, so I put my own grieving process on the back burner and did what ever I though was expected of me to clean the house and welcome the mourning guests. Years later a friend of mine would tell me that at the funeral I told her that a adult family member had told me that I needed to be strong for everyone else and not to cry. I did not even recall saying that to her and it was a bit of a shock to hear this years later. It made me wonder how many others things had I forgotten about and put to the back of my psyche as I got on with surviving on a day to day basis.

I was around 18 years when a phone call brought to my attention that I really had only flashing memories of much of my child hood leading up to around 7 or 8 years of age.  That phone call was a enquiry that was put out to the children that stayed at one of the children's home I had been in with my 2 younger siblings. Seemingly another child or maybe more than one that stayed there was bringing sexual abuse cases against one of the staff. I am not sure of the details as I did not ask too many questions. I did not feel I had any thing to offer as I really had such little memories of my time there, all I knew is I did not like my time in those children's homes. However as we chatted after my phone call, it became apparent that my next sibling down from me seemed to remember in much more detail events from the children homes which left me wondering why I 15 months older had such little memories.

I have discovered that I am far from alone as many adults share this lack of memories from early childhood years. It is called dissociation and I myself was told by a intuitive receiving insight from my soul signature in 2010 that I in fact went into a altered meditational like state. I feel that this was definitely helpful so I did not get stuck in the past experiences and instead could be more present and look towards the future when I would be able to be strong and balanced enough to heal and integrate these parts of the younger self.  When a child goes through traumatic experiences they can just be too over whelming to process or there just is not the opportunity so they kinda get held in suspended animation until the day that they can resurfaced and be resolved through allowing the feeling to rise, accepting the experiences, forgiving the self and others if need be and returning it home to divine unconditional love through the heart and souls energy light frequencies. 

Little did I realise back then as a child and teenager that it was in fact this special women I called Mum whom I got to observe pacing the kitchen floor tramped in the merry go round of her fears and paranoia would one day be a big influence in my own determination to follow my courageous heart and discover ways to go beyond her limitations, disempowerment and imbalances as a women. To instead venture out and discover a different way to live life on this planet that sustains, empowers and uplifts health and well-being on all levels; physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Thank you mother whom gave birth to me and for helping me cultivate such a deep commitment to my own resurrection and path of taking flight be like the phoenix rising from the ashes of the harshness, hardships, struggles, disenchantment and abuses of yesteryears norms ! 

I grew up in times of so much taboo and shame around depression. I am grateful that we live in a world that where more and more people are speaking about mental health more openly and making it more acceptable to speak about. However what is often left out or undervalued is including emotional intelligence and the physical and spiritual connection for positive holistic 'mental health'.

Tension in the body leads to tension and agitation in the mind; unresolved emotions leads to unresolved mental chatter and voices going round and round ones head ( & who's thoughts & feelings are they anyways !?! ), feeling spiritual disconnectedness leads one to feeling ungrounded, untrusting and unsupported by life and ones own spiritual nature and worthiness to know oneself as pure goodness and always taking care of. When one is spiritually disconnected then one depends predominately on the outer world to inform one of ones sense of identity, value and worth. It can fast become a muddle of many different opinions, judgements, prejudices and concepts that create the mental maze, haze and emotional apathy.

That is why the foundations and simplicity of everything I offer under the umbrella of wellness services a is about supporting people to experience the release of stresses and strains, judgements and harshness and return to the feeling heart, gut instinct and innate body wisdom. In essence pointing people back to their own true  wise inner self, discernment guidance and essential nature where all is well and all is love. 

I feel so grateful that on a soul level I choose my parents so perfectly to gift me the awareness at such a young age of what I did not want to grow up and follow in the foot steps of. By watching my Mum during my formative years I knew where life could take me if I let myself spin too far down what I call the rabbit hole of negativity, low-self esteem, anxiety and depression. So I would do what ever I needed to, to shake off the melancholy when it peaked it's head especially during the winter greyer days. I moved my body with some form of exercise, I wore brighten clothes that made me feel more uplifted, hung out with friend, partied , danced; anything to break free of the mental and emotional shackles and chains. Then in later years I took what I felt like were bigger risks at the time, yet deeper down I knew my happiness, health and well being depended on  taking them and so I bought those flight tickets no matter how spontaneous and erratic it seemed to spent what money I had ( or didn't have ) . I went on the travel adventures and training course that felt right to my heart. One by one the perfect opportunity presented itself when I was ready to say YES to heal the past, express the unexpressed and reveal more of my sincere heart while reconnecting with the authenticity of my spirit. I started to discover the many benefits and bigger picture of Yoga, Meditation, Massage, Affirmations etc for BMS peacefulness, calm, self esteem recovery and generally well being and connectedness. In simply I started to realise I felt better when I had them in my life and felt worst with anxieties, negativity and body discomforts returning when I let them slip away for a few days. So I return to them again and again and wow have they served me well through the last 18years +/_ and continue to be the back bone of my own well being journey and that which I am so grateful and passionate to share with others. 

It is stated by some at this time that we live in the times of no more secrets and it is not hard to imagine this as truth with all the technological advances these days. What I have found to be true is that the more we reveal our most 'dirty' secrets that may have been cloaked in shame, embarrassment, guilt, low self esteem, regret and find a way to express them positively and resolve them by forgiving others and ourself, then we free ourselves from the hold that they may have had on us once upon a time.

The other amazing thing is that when we are more truly authentic and open we discover that we have more in common  for e.g our insecurities and are more alike in many ways than different. This can lead to feeling more connected and supported by one another when we meet each other in empathy and compassion instead of sympathy and victim consciousness.

Bit by bit as ones courage gets affirmed with positive connection we don't need to wear the masks and many hats of different personas anymore, so we drop rolls once played by our persona characters unless they serve us of course and we still want to continue our roll. It is all a choice !

This leads to feeling more and more relaxed as the authentic self, not the one we think we need to show or put on show for others so as to fit into mainstream thinking and be likeable which takes a lot of energy to maintain and a lot of control and lets face it, it is just a ego trip !!!  It is so much easier and fun to be ones true self and accept none of us is humanly perfect and by who's judgement and evaluation of 'perfect' have we been trying to attain anyways ! ? ! The real crazy thing is that we live in a world that it takes bravery and courage and healthy self esteem to be ones unique self and trust ones own heart and gut instinct; to drop the neediness of other peoples agreement or validations on our sense of our worth and value in the world. 

You are your highest answer.  My advice is do what ever it takes to become your own best and trusted  friend. Take care of your body, finds ways to authentically express your heart and truth, follow your dreams, follow your joy, take a chance on being your true self and know it is enough. It is not only enough, it is all you can be and all you are ever meant to be, you are a unique expression of all of creation. Just one of you in existence, how amazing is this and that is why your unique finger prints can access your phone and get you through security in airports to certain countries. 

Release the pressures of trying to attain someones else's ideals of perfection. Be kind and compassion to yourself so you can be kind and compassion to others, forgive them and forgive yourself for what ever you may think has been done unto you or by you onto another. Once you realise in your heart that you are perfect as you, you are beautiful as you, you are magnificent as you; you will see through more and more through the eyes of wonder and witness these qualities more easily in those around you. You will also become discerning of B.S. and intolerant of false truths so expect to give them a wide birth and focus only on what resonants instead. 

I dedicate this writing and tribute with all my humble and loving heart to my MUM Eileen O'Brien. Thank you for being you and gifting me the perfect life circumstance and experiences to grow from and discover my soulful life path, truth and passions for personal empowerment and an authentic healthy, creative and joyful humanity. It is my greatest joy to be of divine service to others and support those whom are ready, willing, choosing and able to step forward in support and love of themselves and others.

​Amen <3 May you continue to RIP ( rise in peace ) ...RISE & RISE in your spirit & Souls light <3

​I set out to start my Biz Mountain View Massage Day Spa in 2009 with a dream to run my own business and experience more freedom. I was so over being an employee to fit a roll set out by others criteria and restrictions as I had so many of my own ideas on how I would love to establish and create my own wellness biz. However I had so much to learn along the way & did not feel equipped with the details of the HOW TO. In truth my ego was scared as I had never run a business before and had not much idea of what I was doing, I only knew I felt I had to do it. I had in truth up until that point what I will call an employee mindset not that of a entrepreneur and yet somewhere in me I felt I had the potential to go beyond what I knew and create something of my own that would reflect my deeper values, interests, caring nature , passions, trainings and life experiences.

One Day in the year 2010 on my way to working as a freelance massage therapist in another Day Spa my car went off the road, it just lost traction on the  gravel rd all of a sudden and I literally drove through into the bushes and somehow came out the other side and popped back onto the road. I kept driving in shock and yet I knew this was the shake up I needed from my inner wise self and soul to become more present to my deeper calling and truth. I knew deep down this was my wake up call to get over my fears, insecurities and resistance for starting my own business and get on with it. At the time I was in negotiation to sign a contract to manage another Day Spa and my ego mind was telling me this would be my stepping stone to running my own business as I would gain more confidence etc However in hindsight it would have taken me off my soulful path in a big way hence I needed the wake up call. #gratitude

Hope you enjoyed this inspiring story of the power of following your heart, your joy and living your passions. A reminder that failures and messing up is all part of the journey to discover your deeper truths, a-ha moments and deeper path to greatest fulfilment of your life purpose and helping others along the way.

​" One day I finally surrendered my little will and realised the greatest joy of my soul is in divine service "  Mj 

Vibrant Love & Wellness Vibes :) 

Mary jo  <3
Mj's Bio for more on personal story

" I did it my way " Do it your way ;) You are a unique expression of all that is divine.
FRANK SINATRA https://youtu.be/6E2hYDIFDIU
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..P.S. Wowwww had no idea I was going to share all that .... here's to going with the flow. #heartspeaks

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