As we close out 2019, I am feeling reflective of what has been a epic year of experiences. I could write a book on 2019 alone.
In my own personal experience at times over this last year is it has felt like a roller coaster ride of mixed emotions moving through great heights of personal empowerment , clarity, vitality and joyful service to sudden dips into feelings of overwhelm, exhaustion, uncertainty, unsupported, habit to control, distrust and with deep sadness and confusion.
Over the year I was confronted by my own challenges and inabilities to receive and let in the balance of support I needed at times with what I give out. I was humbled into asking for more support and faced with a deep seated fear of it not being provided or even if it was, it being taking away from me rather swiftly. I realised I felt more in control in the giving and how much a state of open vulnerability and accepting ones worthiness and inherent value is required to be capable to receive from life and others with ease, gratitude and joy.
I uncovered that much of this pattern within me goes back to my early childhood experiences and a influence from other life's my soul has lived when I did in fact experience these patterns again and again. In this life as Mary Jo at age 3 years old I was sent to two different children's home over a 3 year period along with my two younger siblings until I was 6 yrs olds. By the age of 3yrs old I had started to live a great deal of my life in the Fight or Flight stress response to life due to feeling unsafe and uncertain within my environment. Hence why so much of my latter life has been about how to unwind my previously over stressed nervous system and heal thyself. No better way to learn than through personal experience.. right !
I realised a metaphorical door had been closed on those formative years within my psyche between the ages of 3-6yrs which resulted in me having very little memories of those years. That door got opened more and more over the last year and was its most intense in its emotional cleansing from the period of June to Oct.
Over the years all we had generally heard was positive endearing feedback about her encounters with people both on our property and off of it. However receiving this surprise letter stirred in me the possibility of losing my dogie whom I love so much. I even call her my heart and greatest teacher of unconditional love and joy this life. This brought to the surface of my psyche the sadness of my younger 3yr old self when she perceived herself to be taken from her parents whom she loved and placed into the children homes where she did not feel she belonged.
I believe that on a a higher level the entire situation was to help me heal the unresolved emotional patterns of my past and my little dog was playing out her divine intervention role for my highest and best good and for those also involved if they were willing to receive the gifts and to balance the old karma from other life incarnations shared.
" There is two ways to look at life, one as if nothing is a miracle and the other as if everything is " Albert Einstein.
The greater opportunity of my soul through my human journey in this instance was to realise and accept that love in its purest expression can never really be lost and I am that essence of love within the depth of my true being just like everyone is.
Through the accumulative effect the door of my heart and psyche was opened and it presented me with the amazing invitation to finally resolve, heal and set free those feelings and emotions of my younger self, which I had not been ready before this year of 2019 to fully acknowledge, feel and embrace with divine compassion and love. Or to use the scientific term to return the electro-magnetic charge of where all these unresolved emotion's / feeling's were held in the cellular memory within the polarities back to the neural 'Zero Point Field'.
When we have stressful experiences that is simply too much to process or has no supportive outlet for expression in a healthy loving way, they most often get stuffed down and even fragmented off behind a forgotten doorway. If they never get resolved they can potentially play havoc with ones psyche, create a distorted self esteem image and lead to all kinds of imbalances and stresses like anxiety, depression and cancers in the body.
If you want to know at least some of my secret to not needing to see a medical doctor in over 13 years, it is because I have been willing to do my inner work with being open to exploring different ways to release and express old emotions in healthy ways. I embrace the messages from my body with the understanding that my body is my friend that I listen to and it represents my subconscious programming / conditioning / patterning. The next stage is to change the old thought patterns and beliefs by acknowledgement and then change focus into the more positive affirmative new ones instead.
Now coming to the end of this year of 2019 I am feeling well rinsed and renewed to a new level of inner peace, clarity and acceptance within my true authentic being and soulful expression. I am feeling relaxed and excited about the year 2020 and ready to serve with a deeper faith in greater capacity those that cross my path at Vibrant Living Retreat and beyond.
I trust that with my open and authentic sharing and caring, it will support and add insights into your own life path journey now or in the future. Or perhaps it may add some light as you relate to certain members of your family or friends that are moving through their own challenging life transitions and awakenings to a higher level and expansion of conscious awareness. We are ultimately all in this together as a collective consciousness, however it can feel like a lonely journey at times especially if we don't feel we can openly talk to people around us that understand the process of evolution that is happening within each of us to different levels of expression and through out the earth, planets and universe.
We are entering into a more highly evolved and conscious humanity that desires to live in greater harmony within one self and extend that out to each other and the planet. We are here as the soul's choice to discover a way to be healed and whole again and walk our authentic path lighting a pathway of possibilities for others to choose or not.
So if life is throwing curve balls your way and you feel over whelmed by it all, please please don't ever think you are going crazy or judge yourself harshly. No matter if life seems like it is all falling apart and you simply cannot bring it back together the way you think you want it to be and need it to be to feel so called normal and sane. Sometimes everything has to fall apart or seem like it is in order to rearrange itself into a greater divine order and freedom you may never have even knew was possible. So be as kind and gentle and loving to the self as you can through the process and if you need some support you know where I am. It is my greatest honour and joy to support, guide and empower you on your journey beyond the fear of death (s) and change and into truly living your greatest natural expression and unique version walking this exquisite earth home. Remember you are one of a kind; unique and of divine design and you matter to the matter around you.
Being authentic and transparent is the best way forward from now on, in all our perceived greatness, failings, shame point and challenges. Of course from the higher expanded vision of spirit, life is an experience and a gift to be embraced. What the human ego considers a failure or a success, a rightness or a wrongness is really just an experience to learn, grow and evolve with and from into even greater resilience and potentials.
Lip service does not do it anymore, we got to walk our talk and own our stuff, you know the stuff that makes us human and feel imperfect and not enough. The stuff we all share behind the scenes to lesser or more degrees and yet pretend we don't ! I have discovered that shame only lives in those parts of the self that have been held in denial and non acceptance, once accepted and included those parts become whole again and even becomes our greatest gifts of compassion, self realisation and wisdom.
So that is a bit of my behind the scenes storyline from 2019.
" We struggle with insecurity because we compare our behind the scenes with everyone else's highlight reel "
To the frontline of my highlight reel 2019 afforded me the opportunity to attend a few different areas of wellness trainings that peeked my interest and curiosity. I was guided this year to travel more and meet more resonant people and be part of bigger living conscious light worker focused communities for a few days or a week at a time.
My new certification additions in 2019.
- MARCH 2019 I took a 6 day Holistic Pelvic Care Level 1 and 2 certification in Auckland with Tami Kent from USA
- MAY 2019 I Attended a weekend 20hr Pregnancy Yoga Training in Nelson,
- SEPT 2019 I Attend a 5 Day certified immersive 'Introspective hypnosis' training in Wanaka
- NOV 2019 Join a 9 Day Pranic Living Fasting Retreat on the Sunshine coast of Australia.
I feel a bit spoiled to say the least reading over that list. How did I get so lucky ? I am very grateful.
To add to that I also got to attend my 1st Luminate Festival last January and a Yoga Festival in Feb. Then in August I had my 1st trip to Rarotonga island for a much needed 9 night rest and replenish holiday with a wonderful soul sista and healer / animal communicator Rebecca Gambles.
On the flip side this year I also got to lead and facilitate many wonderful Retreats at Vibrant Living for beautiful people coming from all parts of NZ and some from Australia and other parts of the world. I have been in the roles of guide, teacher, student, coach, therapist, healer and trainer. I have facilitated many detox wellness retreats through out the year and numerous QHHT sessions, I gave numerous Massages and Day Spa treatments to clients and retreat guests, I lead numerous Yoga and Mindfulness sessions.
I also was blessed to train 12 new students in my 50hr Holistic Massage training week over the year in 3 separate x 6 day retreats and trained 8 new Indian Head Massage students in my 10hr certification training course. All up I added 20 new trained therapists to our Vibrant Wellness Academy platform in 2019. I feel pretty proud of that I must say as setting up my own training academy was a very inspired and creative idea back in FEB 2017'. I have not counted but at a guess I must have trained well over 50 students since then and each training experience inspires me to further develop and expand Vibrant Wellness Academy trainings and resources for my students to continue on learning after their training retreat time with us here at Vibrant Living Retreat. Click HERE for more on info on my holistic massage and beauty trainings coming up in 2020.
That is the shortened version recap of my year. It was fun to reflect upon and actually write these things down. For 2020 is just around the corner and it will soon be time to get on with the next life adventures and creative potentials it will present for each of our attention, discovery, experience and embrace. Perhaps this will inspire you to also recap your year as we bring 2019 to a close.
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I am beyond grateful for the trust, love and support this beautiful man, lover and friend has showed me through out the 20+ years we have been together on this adventure through life and the awakenings of our consciousness into newly expanded potentials. Many people remark that we are a great team and truly we seem to be and VLR has really giving us the opportunity to explore and live this real time. As in any relationship we have had our growing pains and have learned along the way that to empower oneself was to set ourself and each other free to stay true to our authentic and unique life paths and soulful passions.
So we do our best to support and trust each others life flight paths and passions to elevate to new heights of possibilities and awe. We are each others greatest fans and it is pretty darn awesome to get to inspire one another in very different ways. We have been blessed to walk beside one another in all flavours of life experiences and know the trails and tribulations it has taken to transverse where we were to where we have come to be. We take nothing for granted and feel immense gratitude for the epic life's we get to live each day. It is a great joy and delight to share this with others at VLR.
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Vibrant Blessings for your 2019 Christmas and 2020 new Year celebrations.
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